Single life...
Last February i decided I'm getting myself out of my rut, I'm forgetting the past and moving onto my future... Ive never done this before but i think heck ill give this a try, and signed up for plenty of fish *Sigh* i wish i knew know what i come to find out about dating sites. I have some friends who are happily married from these sites, and ones who have had the worst experiences from it. So insert guy 1, guy 1 we have tons of things in common, hit it off great, things are going great then bam i do the stupid girl move and slept with him. I do the normal thing, and think hey maybe this is like it use to be and wait a day or so don't write, just don't. Well fuck, apparently I'm super rusty when it comes to dating, oh well not too upset about guy number 1.
Guy number 2, we go out on fun dates like mini put, and he takes me out to eat in places that serve gluten free food, and brings me flowers, gluten free beer (Im not going to lie I love beer, and side note best gluten free beer I've ever had was from Florida, love it there), he liked just going to the beach and hanging out, and wandering the park. He was random, and kind of different, like me not very out loud, very quiet, and quirky. Ive got a weird dry sense of humor and so does he. We had both applied to the nursing program at Mohawk.... pause (This is about mid June)
Insert Guy 3, I will call him Mr. C since he still is in and out of my life... we've been friends since we were 12, and have hung out off and on since high school. Out of no where in June he calls me up and asks if me and my roommate would like to hang out and go for a pint with him and his roommate. Anyways this was one of those nights where one pint turns into a couple, then turns into shots, then it turns into party back at their place, and then it turns into Mr C kissing me, and saying he always wanted to do that, no that being said, and my roommate was upset and us leaving, I knew i needed to properly process this information.
At this time i was stressing out over a work promotion, and schooling, and a test i had to write. Well Guy number 2 kept pushing me and pushing me to study harder and harder for this test, because he already wrote it and he said i was going to struggle with it, and every practice test i wrote id get between 90% and 100%. I asked him what he got on it and he told me 75%, but since I am only a PSW id need to study more to understand a grasp the hard content. (needless to say when i did write the entry exam i was sent an email telling me i scored the highest.. just sayin). I had gained entry into the one nursing program, and he was still waitlisted, actually 267 last time i talked to him. Anyways, i was still waiting on hope for this bridging course (only 90 people make it into the nursing program, only 20 into the bridging). So Guy 2, started to become more distant and distant, telling me he was so confused as to what he was going to do with his life now, and needed space for a week so he could figure out school, sell his car, and find an apartment. I gave him that week, and we slightly chatted but nothing too big. Then the Text, oh yes i said text message telling me "you have your life pretty much laid out for you, you know what you want to do and you are getting everything you want." Basically reading a message like that, you first off think Well what the Fuck does that mean? And then you move to Did i just get dumped for having my life too much together? Are you fucking kidding me? what a fucking pussy.. And a bunch of thoughts like this...
Insert Mr C.. well Mr C invited me over to cook me dinner to cheer me up, and bought german white wine which i love, makes me steak my fav, takes me out for drinks to drown my sorrows... and ya..
Anyways So now I am seriously thinking, is there something more to this?? This guy always wants to hang out is always there for me, and basically is a really nice guy (Side Note: Roommate points out to me this is all i can say in my defence about him) We hang out, he walks me to work, meets me to do some shopping (which btw his bike gets stolen outside of jackson square.. whoops...). He then starts getting upset cause i work every weekend but could take time off for FANEXPO, but not for him (We get to pick our schedule at work, but for me to survive i need to work on weekends and FanExpo was a plan to which i invited him to go with me back in June. Anyways, he kept wanting me to go out of town with him on the weekends and go camping but drive back in the morning for work, and my car has broken down so i have to bum rides from my dad until i can get myself a car through savings. Well then he starts making jabs at my father, which is not cool, and making comments on my life now not being together, and i need to know how to manage my time better. All I can think is ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?! Not only did I get dumped a month ago for having my life too much together, but now im being told i need to control my life better, what the fuck? Then he started talking way too seriously, then wanted to know who i was with and why i had time for them and not for him, and why i had time to take my mom to brantford for an appointment but not hang out with him... Slowly i became more and more smothered... I think the final comment for me was one he made about my father. To which i said i think we should go back to being just friends. I wondered could you really re-friendzone a guy? is that possible? Well im trying, I still think he doesnt understand, and then he trys to guilt me when im tired from class, and work, and physio.
Needless to say, I am now back to currently being single.
Seriously where are the guys like action movies, love and respect family, love horror movies (especially zombie ones they've always been my fav), can understand sometimes i just like to be alone, can understand just because im quiet doesnt mean im mad sometimes i just like being quiet, Has a quirky sense of humor, enjoys weird things like art, and drawing, and just someone who has a brain, who can stay in bed all day and watch movies, or can go adventure the day wandering the streets...
WHAT IS SINGLE LIFE?
Friday night... work Saturday morning... no roomy home... friends busy and/or working... home made sangria's, making a crock pot of gluten free homemade soup... using Drano on the bath tub... and sketching new drawings.. nothing too exciting...
Saturday... Work... Workout... Shower... Sketch some more... get dressed and head out with the girls for the night...
Hmmmmm... Sounds about right...
anyways im off to go meet up with the girls
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