Sick...

Im sick... 

Im a suck when im sick... which is strange i tend to find mostly guys are.... maybe in a way i think like a guy, since i did have alot of guy friends i hung out with in high school... nope thats not possible, im just reaching for possibilities... 

ok so past couple of days have been interesting, 

at work the other day i was giving a shower when the need to pee struck, it was like one of those omg you better fn go now, so i ask B if she will take over, and run out of the apartment.. Now im waiting at the elevator to get back down to the office to pee... Insert now man from down the hall, comes out and says hey, then proceeds to start farting while carrying on this conversation, while i have to fuckin pee... so there i am leaned up against the wall, trying to hold in my laughter and of course my pee while this guy is dropping bottom next to me... 

10 min later,  ive gotten back up there and am now leaving with the other girls B and M, and were waiting for an elevator... M looks at me, grins and then farts, ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME in the span of 10 min and being in the same spot ive had 2 people fart while im waiting for an elevator, to be honest M didnt know about the other guy which made it that more funny. 

fuck im sitting here typing and ill im thinking is my fucking head is just going to implode and i will die, it is my birthday this weekend... grr... 

So yesterday morning im at work and Je turns to me and says "Corrine, i want a car, go buy me a car" to which i responded "well Je, i want Norman Reedus, but i dont see me getting him ever, so we dont always get what we want." we had a little debate and some joking around back and forth, but nope no car for her.. 

Last night at work, i was working on this health and safety presentation that i have to do, jeez powerpoint seems to have gotten harder since i was in college before. That or im just not tech savy anymore... im gunna blame powerpoint. So last night I decided to change everything and kind of be the person who was overly happy and sarcastic, and seriously i generally am at work with some consumers, but last night i did it to all of them, and man the response was amazing. I think thats the way im going to handle myself while nursing, generally you will need to know when that isnt appropriate, but fuck i dress up like a jackass, it makes them laugh, i talk like a valley girl it makes them laugh, i bring out the nerd voice it makes them laugh. I would seriously want to work in a childrens ward after i was done school, but i dont know if i could handle it, i think it would make me super sad. I was a sick kid growing up, with the Crohn's disease, and everything. When i was 11 they thought it was cancer, they treated me for cancer for 6 months, and told my parents i had 6 months to live and that they couldnt pin point where the cancer was coming from because i had the intestines of a 70 year old. Needless to say thank god it wasnt cancer, im sure my dad was the most upset, since he lost his sister at age 5 to cancer, it turns out to be Crohn's disease, IBS, Lactose intolerance and Celiac disease. YAY I CANT EAT ANYTHING! lol im kinding, my one person tells me all the time to go enjoy my caca.. lol i know... and then will eat things like cakes (which i let him think bothers me, im not a cake or sweet  person im a chips person) and will make orgasmic sounds while taking every bite... 

ok, off to go make some peppermint tea, then off to the drs today then back to work till midnight... f'n midnight... u know i dont generally mind till midnight, until right now when i feel like death and i know im going to be counting down the hours till midnight, and then freaking out more because of this damn presentation tomorrow. Watch i loose my damn voice before it... the problem is IM SHY, until you get to know me more, then im energetic, and playing pranks, cracking jokes, etc 

ok fuck, i need to go... 

Charlotte

My Niece is pretty fucking adorable, im not going to lie, and shes like a mini me. She does things to make people laugh but not just that she can be as shy and shy can be, but man she has a pretty sick sense of humour like me. Let me also let you know she is 5 

for example constantly i harras Je because she hates Spiders, and bugs so ill send her pics, and put bugs and shit on her desk. She loves piggies, so ill ruin bacon for her...

Well charlotte knows how i feel about dolls, especially ones that talk... nothing is creepier than a fucking doll that talks, oh wait ya there is how about a fucking pair of twin dolls who converse with each other... when they get started it really creeps me out, charlotte knows this... so like a month again she chased me all over the house with them... i will litteraly run, jump and push anyone out of my way when it comes to creepy doll things... (dont even get me started on my friends bat like creature the is like 2 feet tall, has sharp teeth, and i sware fucking stares through my soul... one time i tried to play a prank of some friends so i had to move him, i screamed and ran with him... ya i hate them)

Last night about 7pm, i receive a call from Charlotte "Hey auntie Corrine! i wanted to know if you wanted to come to my party" me"Oh ya what party are you having??" then she starts to laugh... then i hear it, the damn dolls, the twins "Can we have a hug" OH FUCK NO, SHE DIDNT JUST CALL ME UP TO DO THIS .... She then proceeds to laugh and then hang up on me... Im like seriously at 5, AT FUCKING 5 YEARS OLD YOU ARE THAT SADISTIC.... im not even mad, im impressed... clearly she has been hanging out with me too much, and my quirkiness is rubbing off on her. 

She came with my parents to pick me up the other week when i was sick from work.. I asked her why she was wearing a mask... her response "incase your turning into a zombie, i dont want to become one" 

Work time fun! :)

Work Shannagins 

So i was given a pair of overalls, and it escalated from there...

I have a question how in the hell do guys do the helicopter? like seriously, i tried thrusting my pelvis to make the bag flap it was difficult 

I followed M around playing on my cell im sexy and i know it... 

the only thing i hate about this photo is above the pouch it looks like i have a pooch... yuck... 

Ja was way to hungover for me, so i do what i do best, follow people around dancing like a fool 

Well i had a good time 

Supercrawl Photos

SuperCrawl Photos.... 

The "Sheep Pipe" first off who buys this, and would you put your lips to this... ya thats what i thought

Ja with the "41" year old

Ja Playing some pool

She is the best pool player in history

I enjoyed these coffee cups 

Ja Showing off to Je who couldnt come that Kanon is hers 

This guy terrified me made me think it was a just for laughs gag

L and Ja

I love this, this picture cannot justify it at all 

It was like a carnival 

Recycling Nazi, with L's daughter and friend in the background photo bombing

Down this Alley there was this random tent with a light inside and a ladder with wood surrounding it

Ja and I, the whitest girls i know

Je would be so sad if she saw this.. 

SuperCrawl

So on Saturday Night i headed out to SuperCrawl, on what was going to be quite the adventurous night...

So once i finished the last blog, i realised we were all meeting up soon, so i need to hurry up and find clothes so i could GTFO the door. So i was like ill dress up nice (i never dress up nice) so i was looking at my sweater dresses and leggings, and everything i tried i wasn't happy in, it just wasn't me (my first day to class i wore black skinny jeans and S my roomy says "wow it must be a special occasion your not wearing your yoga pants, you even wear them when your going out") Finally i said fuck it, why go "dressy" when that isn't really me, so yoga pants, black t shirt, and thin volcom zip up sweater, ahhh comfort...

Met up with Ja and we headed down to meet L at Jackson Square, from there we headed through the crowd. The art was amazing!! I was loving so of the amazing crafts people came up with, and the all the sustainable products. Then we hit bar 1, then bar 2, then back to bar 1, look at some more art, then watch kanon perform... Im not for sure who he is, i just know he is the singer of white flag, and my girlfriend Sal's brother in law. Either way Ja was in love and i had to pull her away... Off to bar 3 Absinthe... Ok this was originally Fever when i was in college so i still assumed it was a gangster bar/ club so i was a little hesitant, then to find out that this was a hipster bar... if you don't know what a hipster is please watch this video...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbTI7eWaQbk

While at the bar, we noticed a giant guy to girl ratio... and then L points out "hey do you think we look like lesbians because we are sitting over here?" my normal response "Nope (then i placed my hand on her boob and said) now we do"

We tried another bar, to which u had to go down through the basement to get to the patio, needles to say the only beer they served was Pabst blue ribbon beer, and wine, from fancy glasses. Then i looked around, fucking grandpa hats, ok i needed out, it was a patio of 25  seats and about 60 people, 40 of which we were the old man hats, and shades at 11pm time to back the fuck up and get out of this hipster shit...

After some time there we decided to move back to bar 2, the karaoke bar... Ja wanted to sing, but no fucking way you could get me up there. Ok Ive done Karaoke now like twice, but both times i was drunk, and for some reason enjoy singing barenaked ladies If i had a million dollars And Spice Girls any spice girls. 

Ran into N from another location, and she was hustling drinks, i don't know how people do that. I feel bad, i don't like it when guys offer to buy me drinks. Maybe I'm weird for saying that, but i am a generally shy person at times, in big group settings or i I'm around people i don't know. Once i know you, or around people I'm comfortable with I'm the obnoxious one... not overly obnoxious.

We spent most of the time out on the patio (needless to say since i was only wearing i thin sweater, this morning Ive got a sore throat like a bitch, and my cheeks are sore... yay sinus's! actually Fuck sinus's)
Outside is where we met a couple of unusual charcters, like the guy who told us he was 40, and then said if we had pot we could smoke from his sheep pipe. I needed to see this pipe, seriously you have to put your mouth to the sheeps ass and light the back. Thats some fucked up shit there, who wants to smoke pot out of a sheeps ass? Then he starts bragging that he is taking home two lesbians, and trust me those lesbians didnt look interested in him at all. In the show how i met your mother there is an episode called the inn keeper, it is a person who is too drunk to make it home, so goes home with someone who lives close to the bar, and passes out, thus making them an inn keeper. The one lesbian seemed pretty drunk, and i have a feeling that he was going to get inn keepered, that and he was bragging like he was going to get some threesome, power to him if he did, but i highly doubt it. Turns out he showed his license to Ja, hes only like 34, i dont know why people lie about age, but whatever.

Next we meet Ja's little BF, lol, he was 21 i believe and was totally wanted Miss Ja. He was pretty geeky, but was clearly a nice guy, and just a little too young for Ja. He got kicked out for not having proper ID.

Then we come to the trio. 2 guys who i really couldnt tell apart since they were dressed so similar, and then the Robert Pattinson look alike (23). These too were young ins. As last call happened, L comes out with 3 beers and says "I dont know what you fuckers are drinking but last call has been called, and these are mine."

Robert Pattinson guy totally had the personality i like, but not the looks, like he was a cutie, but im not all into the cutie little boy look, Give me some older guys that are sexy like Norman Reedus, or Sean Patrick Flannery, or Charlie Hunnam. We went back to an afterparty at their place, which consisted of their girl roomates and them smoking pot, and watching step brothers. Dont get me wrong step brothers is hilarious, but i could totally see the childish attitudes from this generation, and it was so weirding me out. So L and I GTFO'd out of there.

Man, L didnt recover or wake up till the late evening, Ja came in later to work with a hangover, and I woke up from being called in early got to work, and was fine.. GO ME! i just could have used some coffee!

Single Life.. Hows does this dating thing work again?

Single life...

Last February i decided I'm getting myself out of my rut, I'm forgetting the past and moving onto my future... Ive never done this before but i think heck ill give this a try, and signed up for plenty of fish *Sigh* i wish i knew know what i come to find out about dating sites. I have some friends who are happily married from these sites, and ones who have had the worst experiences from it. So insert guy 1, guy 1 we have tons of things in common, hit it off great, things are going great then bam i do the stupid girl move and slept with him. I do the normal thing, and think hey maybe this is like it use to be and wait a day or so don't write, just don't. Well fuck, apparently I'm super rusty when it comes to dating, oh well not too upset about guy number 1. 
Guy number 2, we go out on fun dates like mini put, and he takes me out to eat in places that serve gluten free food, and brings me flowers, gluten free beer (Im not going to lie I love beer, and side note best gluten free beer I've ever had was from Florida, love it there), he liked just going to the beach and hanging out, and wandering the park. He was random, and kind of different, like me not very out loud, very quiet, and quirky. Ive got a weird dry sense of humor and so does he. We had both applied to the nursing program at Mohawk.... pause (This is about mid June)
Insert Guy 3, I will call him Mr. C since he still is in and out of my life... we've been friends since we were 12, and have hung out off and on since high school. Out of no where in June he calls me up and asks if me and my roommate would like to hang out and go for a pint with him and his roommate. Anyways this was one of those nights where one pint turns into a couple, then turns into shots, then it turns into party back at their place, and then it turns into Mr C kissing me, and saying he always wanted to do that, no that being said, and my roommate was upset and us leaving, I knew i needed to properly process this information. 
At this time i was stressing out over a work promotion, and schooling, and a test i had to write. Well Guy number 2 kept pushing me and pushing me to study harder and harder for this test, because he already wrote it and he said i was going to struggle with it, and every practice test i wrote id get between 90% and 100%. I asked him what he got on it and he told me 75%, but since I am only a PSW  id need to study more to understand a grasp the hard content. (needless to say when i did write the entry  exam i was sent an email telling me i scored the highest.. just sayin). I had gained entry into the one nursing program, and he was still waitlisted, actually 267 last time i talked to him. Anyways, i was still waiting on hope for this bridging course (only 90 people make it into the nursing program, only 20 into the bridging). So Guy 2, started to become more distant and distant, telling me he was so confused as to what he was going to do with his life now, and needed space for a week so he could figure out school, sell his car, and find an apartment. I gave him that week, and we slightly chatted but nothing too big. Then the Text, oh yes i said text message telling me "you have your life pretty much laid out for you, you know what you want to do and you are getting everything you want." Basically reading a message like that, you first off think Well what the Fuck does that mean? And then you move to Did i just get dumped for having my life too much together? Are you fucking kidding me? what a fucking pussy.. And a bunch of thoughts like this... 
Insert Mr C.. well Mr C invited me over to cook me dinner to cheer me up, and bought german white wine which i love, makes me steak my fav, takes me out for drinks to drown my sorrows... and ya.. 
Anyways So now I am seriously thinking, is there something more to this?? This guy always wants to hang out is always there for me, and basically is a really nice guy (Side Note: Roommate points out to me this is all i can say in my defence about him) We hang out, he walks me to work, meets me to do some shopping (which btw his bike gets stolen outside of jackson square.. whoops...). He then starts getting upset cause i work every weekend but could take time off for FANEXPO, but not for him (We get to pick our schedule at work, but for me to survive i need to work on weekends and FanExpo was a plan to which i invited him to go with me back in June. Anyways, he kept wanting me to go out of town with him on the weekends and go camping but drive back in the morning for work, and my car has broken down so i have to bum rides from my dad until i can get myself a car through savings. Well then he starts making jabs at my father, which is not cool, and making comments on my life now not being together, and i need to know how to manage my time better. All I can think is ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?! Not only did I get dumped a month ago for having my life too much together, but now im being told i need to control my life better, what the fuck?  Then he started talking way too seriously, then wanted to know who i was with and why i had time for them and not for him, and why i had time to take my mom to brantford for an appointment but not hang out with him... Slowly i became more and more smothered... I think the final comment for me was one he made about my father. To which i said i think we should go back to being just friends. I wondered could you really re-friendzone a guy? is that possible? Well im trying, I still think he doesnt understand, and then he trys to guilt me when im tired from class, and work, and physio. 
Needless to say, I am now back to currently being single. 
Seriously where are the guys like action movies, love and respect family, love horror movies (especially zombie ones they've always been my fav), can understand sometimes i just like to be alone, can understand just because im quiet doesnt mean im mad sometimes i just like being quiet, Has a quirky sense of humor, enjoys weird things like art, and drawing, and just someone who has a brain, who can stay in bed all day and watch movies, or can go adventure the day wandering the streets... 

WHAT IS SINGLE LIFE?

Friday night... work Saturday morning... no roomy home... friends busy and/or working... home made sangria's, making a crock pot of gluten free homemade soup... using Drano on the bath tub... and sketching new drawings.. nothing too exciting... 

Saturday... Work... Workout... Shower... Sketch some more... get dressed and head out with the girls for the night...

Hmmmmm... Sounds about right... 
anyways im off to go meet up with the girls 

Quick Photos, and Stories from rest of day...

OK, after the walmart experience with mom.. i went to the bell store with dad and paid an ordered our iphone 5's which i hope comes in for my birthday! 

Next i went and picked up my best buddy L... and we went shopping, ok so Zellers is closing here in canada... going to become a target, and so L suggests we go in since last day for this store in monday and everything is so cheap... their was some good deals.... and i grabbed 3 bags of 30 cards for 2.99 a piece.. L  was like "do u really need $10 worth of cards?" me-"well ya.. my mom and i like to collect cards" L-" Happy Birthday to my Step-Daughter Connie when are you really going to need that??" Me-" Ill give that to someone..." 

SO we eventually go and get L her new cat today.. so cute 

Then Went to the parents made them some dinner before home.. here i hung out with my buddy Tobby... 

 Found this Photo of my Grandpa in WW2, he had is bookmarked in a stack of his books... 

Shopping Day with Mom

Ok.. So my mom is alot different then some moms out there, dont get me wrong, i love my mother to death but she lacks a simple thing of tack.. which i feel is part of her brain injury...

Flash back ten years ago when i was 16, new to having my g2, every wednesday would get up drive my mom to work (she was a charge nurse at a nursing home), and then take the car so i could go to co-op.. well this morning was more different then any other day. My older brother was married and living in brantford, and my dad worked in kitchener at the time so at 730 in the morning no one else was home but my mom and myself. I entered the room at 712 am, (i know this because i alway look at their bedroom clock when i walk in) and my mom was struggling to get stuff together for work, and we need to be out the door soon so she could get to work for 730. Something was very off with the way she was acting, i asked her if she was ok, and the last thing i will ever hear and will haunt me forever was "Catch me before I die" flash ... she was on the bed... flash i was putting her in the van (how i got her down the stairs ill never know)... flash ... im in the waiting on the inside of the MacMaster Emergency i hear a nurse walk by snaps me out of my face as she yelled "I think this lady is having a stroke!" SNAP.. i realize i have to call my dad, brother, and grandparents... it took me over an hour before i finally got ahold of anyone, i sat there honestly feeling like i was stoned... 

Flash forward to a little under two years ago, im 24 Mom and Dad have sent an email saying that they are off to the Daytona 500 race from their condo, and will email and/or skype tomorrow. Im working from 430 to midnight that night, and comes 10pm and i receive a phone call, saying not to worry, but to have my passport ready, mom is in an emerge in florida and it may have been another stroke, or something in her brain. Later to find out she has received a retinal detachment in her left eye... I am terrified of flying, but decide to fly down and spend their last couple of days in florida with them and drive back. 

Flash forward about a year later, and a ton of eye surgery's and procedures, mom goes in for another surgery to find out while at walmart that mom had a stroke on the table.. 

Ok back to the shopping story, My mother tends to stutter when she gets worked up, migraines, and tends to wonder off on us, to our frustration and worry. 

So today my mother decided she would like to take me to go get my nursing scrubs, so ill have them ready (a really nice gesture, plus shopping day with my mom can be super fun). Well, today was the start to walmarts anniversary sale, pretty much equal to a black friday or a boxing day sale (this is walmart canadas huggest sale)... wrong day to come in... mom gets over whelmed by the sales, wants everything, but then worries about spending too much, then wants to buy things for others, but then gets confused. So here we come to the fashion section, i know were in trouble since from working in walmart in the past i know the clearance trend for fashion, i know were in the 3 dollar end of summer sale time. Mom was looking for clothes for my niece, i tried and tried to get her away from this area.. she finally focused after about 10 min, and i tried get her to head over to grocery with me. She was originally following behind me and i turned around and she was gone.. I scanned through the fashion section, then through grocery, and then all over the store, i lapped it about 6 times, then i had her paged for 45min, im also listening for a page like code white... something... finally found her.. outside in the rain, and she broke a tide bottle and spilt it everywhere. 

Its days like this make me worry, it drives me nuts, makes me want to scream, want to cry, i feel bad for those not understanding moments. Heck i work with brain injury every day, so why cant i keep calm all the time when i get frustrated. I love my mother more than she knows, she sometimes doesnt understand emotion that well, shes either overly worried, or sad, or laughing, but the feelings of love or need to have certain emotional connections dont properly exist. 

But im happy in the way that i have a mother who is still here, a mother who still listens though at times she drives me crazy (school, wanting me to get married, wanting grandkids, work, etc) i know it comes from her different emotion style. I wish everyone could understand her blunt way of putting things... 

Photo on way back after her attack in Florida, the sun was bothering her eye so she had her hat tilted... i told her to pose, and this is what she came up with, this photo will always make me laugh... <3

Old Yeller

While walking to shoppers drug mart today, someone yelled out their window, "nice shades babe, now show my your boobs" he sang it in this catchy like rhyme.. I cant even be upset... im kinda impressed that some people in hamilton can be that creative... 

hair

Dyed My hair... Kinda looks like i murdered someone.. side note they only struggled a little

Final Picture... i cant smile.. i tend to look like a creep... 

First Blog ever

First off let me introduce myself; im 26, redhead, nursing student, psw worker, knitting master, wannabe photographer, and most random person ever.

Im a geek, I like comic books, buffy, angel, supernatural, walking dead, all sorts of horror and sci fi movies and shows.

Ive started this Blog because I lived in a bit of a way in highschool what I would like to call a sheltered life… now im living in downtown Hamilton where the most random stuff and stories happen to me, my friends and family… 

First I started with facebook , but I didn’t feel like I let myself tell these stories the right way, and I have twitter but I cant get out every story I want to say….

Im never going to use real names of my friends,  so I will more than likely give them initials, or nick names..

If you ever notice I talk about Animal rights remember this, im not one of those meat is murder peta people.. I LOVE STEAK and chicken.. and I totally have the understanding killing animals for meat and substance, but not killing sharks for fin soup killing a complete eco system… but that’s a totally different topic.

Ok… well that’s it for today, I am still trying to figure out a proper way to put out this blog. I want to make something that is fun and interesting, makes you laugh, and makes you think.